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Growing Up --
Life has been anything but dull. Things did start off pretty normal
though. My three brothers and I all grew up in a very typical middle-class
home in a quaint community where Mom proudly served as the official
neighborhood Kool-Aid mom. Dinner was always ready when Dad got
in from work and we were expected to eat it when Mom put it on the
table. There was lots of order in the Bishop home.
I
am the second oldest of the four Bishop boys. I am less than a year
younger than my older brother, and just over ten years older than
my youngest brother. For seven years, from the time the other middle
brother came along until the youngest was born, I played the part
of the frustrated middle brother very well. I always made sure that
Mom and Dad understood it was no picnic being somewhere in between.
I probably made the situation a bit worse than it actually was.
I
was not exceptional at anything in school. Most everyone else was
more athletic than I was. Even Teddy Begley could throw a dodge
ball hard enough and with enough accuracy to take me out - and he
was nearly blind! I was a fast runner though. I learned just how
fast one day when I had to outrun the whole high school football
team. Evidently I had been spotted kissing the wrong girl. I didn't
know she belonged to the team's manager/gang leader.
But
I did like to sing. I sang all the way through school. From first
grade all the way through my high school years I couldn't wait for
that one hour or so in the middle of the day when I got to make
music. It was my mental oasis in the middle of the academia desert.
In elementary school my instrument was the flute-o-phone and singing
in music class. In middle school I loved singing in the choir. In
high school it was music theory and the select choir that gave me
purpose. I loved my music.
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Looking Back --
I love Jesus. Always have. I figured I had to and I'd better say
it often or he'd get mad at me and then I'd be sorry. I don't know
how many times as a kid I heard someone say, "You'd better
use your voice for God or He will take it away from you." That
was good enough for me. And that was the impression I had of God
while growing up in church. I stayed scared a lot. I remember being
frightened stiff by a Sunday School teacher who told us that we
may have actually taken the Mark of the Beast - and we were only
in elementary school. She told us that the schools were requiring
kids to take the Mark and some of us may have even taken the thing
without realizing it. She also told us that the President was probably
the antichrist. That was pretty scary stuff for us kids. Imagine
fearing we'd been sucker tattooed by the devil and he was running
the country too.
Things
didn't become any clearer as I grew up in church. We always attended
small, noisy churches. These are some of the most genuine people
in the world. I have tremendous admiration for their dedication
and sacrifice. But I stayed confused. There was this one guy who
came to church who, by his own accounts, had us believing he was
Jesus' best friend. Then he'd go to the gym and play rough-and-tumble
basketball with the guys for a couple of hours before heading home
to pick up his disability check. His wife had to work enough for
both of them, and the kids. But he always had a testimony of how
God was meeting their needs.
My
earliest church memories are of the tiny Baptist church we used
to go to. It wasn't much more than slats and pews. But most of my
church life has been spent in the Pentecostal church - the very
firm kind with lots of rules. Again, these folks are genuine, and
they have a real passion for giving it up for God. There were very
strict standards that any professing Christian had to live by. The
ladies: long hair, no makeup, no jewelry and long dresses. The men:
short hair, long sleeves, and not even as much as a wedding ring.
I remember one Saturday night when a lady stood up in our church
and began to sob. She told us of a dream she had. In her dream she
had a car accident, and the paramedics had to cut her hair to treat
her injury. Then Jesus came back and she didn't make it to Heaven
because her hair had been cut. I decided then that I didn't think
I could be a Christian. How could I please a God who obviously would
have no regard for a situation that was totally out of my control.
If the woman's hair was a Heaven or Hell issue, why didn't He just
prevent the accident?
I
was a good kid growing up. When many of my friends were out drinking
and drugging, I was in church. I had opportunities to join them
of course, but I was afraid to. I knew that God didn't want me to
do those things. But that's not what I feared most. I also knew
that Mom and Dad didn't want me doing those things. That's why I
avoided such activities. The way I figured it, God's judgment is
coming - Mom and Dad's judgment is here NOW. So I didn't get drunk
or high. Fear and respect for my parents made a lot of my decisions
when I was growing up.
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Early Music --
At the same time I was studying proper music, I was singing and
playing in a local bluegrass band called the Barnes Family. They
had been picking and singing around our area for a long time when
I joined them while in high school. I sang the tenor part and played
a terrible rhythm guitar while the rest of the band tried to cover
me up. On my sixteenth birthday I traveled with them to Nashville
to make two recordings. One of them was gospel and the other was
something else. (In bluegrass music it's hard to tell sometimes
when something is considered "sacred" or secular.) We
recorded all night long in a little storefront studio on Church
Street. We made two long play albums in about 12 hours. And did
it ever sound like it. I had been with a handful of school choirs
that made live albums before, but this was my first taste of making
recorded music in a real life studio - and in Nashville!. It was
an awesome experience for a teenager who always wanted to do this
sort of thing.
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The Bishops --
I actually wanted to be an undertaker when I was in high school.
I also wanted to be a Gospel singer - and a movie star - and a professional
dancer. I never said much to anyone about wanting to be an undertaker.
That seemed weird. Everyone wanted to be a movie star, so I didn't
have to say much about that. And I knew there was no way I was going
to be a dancer. That would upset a whole lot of people. Our church
didn't allow us to dance unless we were led by the Holy Ghost. For
some reason the same things that were naughty when we were in the
flesh were very holy when we were in the Spirit.
So
I pursued being a Gospel singer. In the meantime I swept floors,
delivered newspapers, mowed lawns, fried chicken, flipped burgers,
mixed paint, cut glass, sold carpet and played records for a living.
I was bound to make my own way until a real singing opportunity
came along. I didn't know I had been living with my big break all
along. They were my family for Pete's sake. (Is that cussing to
a Catholic?) It never dawned on me that I was living with a built-in
Gospel group.
Dad,
Mark and I did well as the Bishops. Dad retired from the job he'd
had for twenty five years to travel and sing with his two oldest
sons. He managed the group, and with very little formal education
he did a remarkable job. Mark blossomed into one of the absolute
best story-telling-songwriters ever. Still is. And I allowed my
ambitions to drive and push me to the point of self-centered, quick
decisions and eventual destruction.
In
the summer of 1984 the Bishops recorded our very first recording.
In the spring of 2001 we recorded our last. For 17 years I was the
Gospel singer I had always wanted to be. We performed in nearly
every state in the country, shared the stage with many of my Gospel
music heroes, recorded over two dozen albums, appeared on big time
television shows and enjoyed having our songs played on radio stations
everywhere. We made some wonderful lifelong friends and knew countless
blessings as people came to know Jesus through our work and ministry.
I couldn't begin to recount the goodness the Lord showed to us in
those years.
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Post Bishops --
Retiring the group was not my idea. But I felt I'd given up my right
to protest because of the circumstances I'd created. It was my own
greed, inflated ego and sense of indestructibility that caused me
to make the most irresponsible decision of my life. The rumors that
followed our quick and out-of-the-blue disbanding were wild and
viscous. What it boiled down to was my own indiscretions and weaknesses.
I'd risked my family, my ministry, my integrity and my own self
respect. I eventually lost all of them.
I've
never been much of a rebel. So however slight it was, I became a
bit of one after the group disbanded. I stayed in church for a while,
even sang specials during church services and joined the choir.
The people of the little Nazarene church in Ravenna, Kentucky were
some of the most loving and genuinely caring hearts I'd ever come
to know. But my own feelings of guilt caused me to feel stained
and dirty. I felt looked down on. Not by the people there, but by
my own sense of who God was. How could He ever trust me again? Why
would He? When we were on the stage singing, it often occurred to
me that there were many people in the pews watching and listening
who were much more talented than I was. One of them probably should've
been holding my mic. Now that my singing career was over, surely
God would get one of them to take my place. As loving as the church
people tried to be, I had trouble feeling comfortable around them.
So I left.
The
moments of intense anger I felt toward myself and the sorrow I felt
for all of those I let down haunted me for a long, long time. Sometimes
it still does. How could I ever express my regret to so many? To
do it broadly would seem shallow. I hurt individuals, and I needed
to apologize to individuals. So I do - nearly everyday.
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Politics --
I've always had a real attraction to the intriguing world of politics.
I remember as a kid sitting in front of the television when Richard
Nixon got on Marine One, the presidential helicopter, and left the
White House for the last time. I was just a kid, but I cried. I
wondered where he was going to live and who was going to take care
of him. I didn't know why he had to leave. I just felt sorry for
him. As soon as I was old enough I registered to vote. I was with
Ronald Reagan on the abortion thing so I voted for him. (I heard
later that HE was actually the antichrist.) I started paying attention
to who wanted to save the unborn and hate the homosexuals and when
the day came, I voted for them. I had no idea there were many other
important issues to consider as well, like caring for the poor,
prejudice and civil rights, and being environmentally and fiscally
responsible. My thinking has changed on a lot of things since those
days.
When
I was newly married I was asked to run for city council in the small
community where we lived. I served nearly two terms on the council
until I resigned to pursue my ministerial studies. As young as I
was, I became one of the people in our tiny town that other folks
came to for political advice. Eventually I was asked to help a friend
with a State Representative's race. I did and we won. Even while
I was on the road with the group I was helping run local political
campaigns back home, and doing it well. I had an impressive score
sheet to be proud of, and that means a lot in the political world.
It
was at a political fundraiser that I was asked by our US Congressman,
who was planning a run for Governor of Kentucky, to join his campaign
staff. I was thrilled. This was a very significant race. He was
the constant front runner throughout both the primary and the general
elections. I was his "body man." Where he was, I was.
People knew when they saw one of us the other was close behind.
The press started looking for me knowing that he and I would be
traveling together. He was a real inspiration to me. He was and
is genuine in his desire to serve the people of Kentucky and it
was a thrill when I was able to stand next to him on election night
as he delivered his acceptance speech. Our group, the Bishops, later
performed for his inaugural.
The
Congressman and I often attended church while we were out on the
campaign trail. He didn't like to give political speeches in church,
but since he was an ordained minister he was comfortable around
church people. And many of the people in the churches recognized
me as one of the Bishops. From time to time we would be traveling
on Sunday morning and couldn't be in church. In the car, he'd have
me lead a couple of hymns then he'd read a passage of Scripture
or a devotional while we were riding down the road. He teases me
still that I wouldn't let him sing along. He had other talents.
After
the election and the inaugural we settled in for the work of governing.
All
of my life experiences have contributed something to my character.
From my strict Pentecostal upbringing that both inspired and perplexed
me; to my experiences on the road where I learned there are people
who are madly in love with Jesus, but don't necessarily see things
the way I do; to the people I've met in my political endeavors who've
helped me understand that making hundreds of new laws only outlines
the offense, not the problem or even the solution really. But, surprisingly,
it is the people I've come across in my rebellion that have changed
me most.
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Me & God Today --
I hope I am never again like I was before. Sounds odd maybe, but
I don't want to be as small thinking and quick to judge as I used
to be. I hope that I can always see God the way I see Him now, and
see others the way He does. He is bigger than I ever knew and more
loving than I ever dreamed. No one ever expressed to me what a lover
He is. I knew He did miracles. I knew He met needs. I even knew
He sent His son. But it was never, ever conveyed to me what a lover
He is. Or if it was, it was drowned out by the overriding noise
of God as harsh and happy to punish.
I've
been a church attender all of my life. But eventually I found myself
wanting to get away from God. I was ready to rebel. But it was during
that period of slight rebellion that I learned much more about God
than I ever did in all of the church services I'd ever attended.
I found myself going into loud and crowded night clubs to hide from
God. But I was constantly running into people who recognized me
from my music. They were trying to hide too. And when they saw me
in that place it was a sign to them that God was still searching
for them and still deeply in love with them. They were convinced
that God sent a familiar Christian face to get their attention.
We'd find the quietest place we could and share our experiences.
It always ended with me encouraging them to give God another chance
in spite of their past and those (like me in my former role) who
might be one of His representatives, but not necessarily doing it
well. I settled my own issues with God, and had my own prodigal
experience in such a place. I "came to myself."
I
remember as a kid hearing good church people say terrible things
about a guy whose ministry took him to bars and other unconventional
places to share the love he'd found in Christ . They'd say, "He'd
better hope Jesus doesn't come back while he's in that honky-tonk."
I just listened and agreed. I didn't know any better. But not anymore.
I know that Jesus can do as much in a dark bar or crowded club as
He can in any church building. After being told all of my life that
those people will have to find their own way back to God - and do
it the "right" way, I now know that God's love can be
expressed and found in the most unlikely places. Is there a place
that a person can go and God will stop at the door, and not go in
after them? Is it not in God's heart to reach into such places and
find them? Would Jesus walk past such a place and consider everyone
inside hopeless, not fit for redemption? Does he cede any ground
to his enemy?
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Tomorrow and Beyond --
I wish I knew what was next. I've learned that God can be spontaneous,
and He is often unpredictable. As invitations come in, I go tell
my story. I still enjoy singing and sharing the things that God
is teaching me. Whether I'm singing, sharing my story, rescuing
the rebellious, or encouraging believers to risk reputation for
true righteousness, I'll listen for the heart of God and follow
the beat wherever it leads.
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